Today I was reunited with an old friend , a friend I met thirteen years back when my heart was diagnosed with a genetic disease. I was very scared of the unknown at that time, but my friend held my hand back then and swore not to leave me in times of trouble. However, despite his care, I didn't really like the guy at that time. He wasn't very pleasant. He gave me headaches & I felt awkward in his presence. Something was just not right, so I decided not to spend much time with him and just keep him in the "acquaintances" category. Strangely enough, I felt much better and more cheerful in his absence . We didn't meet until four years later when ,this time, my soul was diagnosed with a severe neurological disease . In one way or another this old acquaintance found his way to me again & insisted on staying by my side to give me all the support I needed to adapt to my new fear, the fear that had already carved a hole in my heart. Little by little , my friend's idea of comforting me turned into an annoying tingling in my head. This guy turned out to be a control freak who wanted to control my comfort, my happiness, my cheerfulness , my smile... He talked to me at least twice a day & told me things I didn't want to hear. In fact, he made me feel bad about myself & transmitted nothing but negative energy around me. He made me do things I didn't want to do. I honestly freaked out & decided to ignore him totally . Today & after all those years, my old annoying friend came back. He popped out while I was in the middle of some past life reflection. I was thinking of the struggle my beloved ones go through everyday . How is it possible for my heart to be injected with painful medication everyday? How can my soul, that was once healthy & energetic, be physically challenged from the rise of dawn till the break of dusk everyday? Amidst all this chaos inside my mind , my old friend contacted me & insisted that we meet somewhere to talk. I felt terrified. I didn't want to fall for his sweet talk anymore. He needed to understand that no one can ever take me away from the people I cherish most. I decided to end our relationship this time once and for all. It wasn't easy to get rid of someone who's so controlling & manipulative , but I couldn't have done it without my best friend, Faith, who has been there for me ever since ill health has taken over my life.
Sorry , I forgot to mention my old friend's name . His name is " Worry ".